Fourteen-year-old Mira longs for a sense of safety, a feeling of being loved. Her life is fine: she has a mother, a stepfather, a little sister, there are gifts for Christmas, and a cat. But there is something wrong about Mira. One little nighttime secret. When Mira wants to celebrate New Year's Eve with her friend Lera, her stepfather disagrees. However, after a tense family dinner, she still gets permission. At the party, just like at home, she receives contradictory messages from older, protective figures, which is reflected in Mira's friendship with sixteen-year-old Lera and in her first experience of love.
“Meshchaninova poignantly conveys what it means to live with a terrible secret enclosed in your chest, dragged like a burden, endured in silence and shame: a great unsaid colouring every interaction, self-perception and hope about the other. The film presents a girl’s teenage years as an impossible test, with Mira longing for an escape into adulthood or a return to lost childhood.” (Cristina Álvarez López, International Film Festival Rotterdam)